I got up late, went back to bed, slept until late afternoon, got my IV antibiotics and that was most of my day. Still coughing and choking. It’s alarming that my BP is going up each day while my oxygen keeps going down. I have very deep pitting edema all the way up my legs. My voice is more than broken. It’s so hoarse I can hardly be heard.

Still going deeper into despair about my IVIg denial and my failing health. My eyes barely open most of the day. I am wicked bad weak. I need to get the heck out of Utah. It’s depressing to know I am “not worth it” when it comes to making me functional again.

And of course I am too weak to do my laundry 😦 Yes. I am feeling sorry for myself. I could use some prayers. Thank you.