When I think about each day, I remember little. Then I look at pics or read something from my daughter and remember more. Usually it’s a day or two later when stuff makes sense in my brain. It’s disorienting when I realize…my daughter has cleaned something or done stuff….hours or days after she did it. I wonder why I was so clueless…how come I didn’t notice?
I do best with one other person. With lots of noise and people moving around, I think most of my brain just shuts down. Plenty of things can happen all around me, without me noticing. I can focus on one kid or one adult….and that’s iffy. I think that’s mostly thanks to West Nile Virus, but the edema in my head sure isn’t helping. My pea size brain is floating on a sea of extra fluid. It’s trippy.
Lot’s of sweating today. I don’t pee much. All that fluid has to get out of me somehow. My dripping leg is doing it’s best to try to drain me. I must be demented….but at this point I am missing those soaking night sweats I used to have. Thanks to Plaquenil, the night sweats went away. The all-over edema absolutely, positively totally sucks. I used to think my most likely way to die was suffocation. Now it looks more like drowning.
Well….that’s cheery, huh? 😛 I just uploaded the pics 4 year old Porter took today. He has an unnatural fascination with the handicap fire alarm near the ceiling. It’s bright red. When a building-wide fire alarm goes off, it also has a strobe light to go with the ear-splitting alarm. Every day I delete many, many pics of it. Here are his 4 most interesting pics of the day…
Close-up of bro Fletcher
Fletcher and the noisy jet fighter
Droopy grandma Wendy
I must have been spaced out and in pain. I keep the pillow on me in self-defense.
The kids seem unfazed and mostly oblivious to my physical shortcomings…but both of them like either covering my eye to fix my voice, or lifting my drooped eyelid.
My favorite pics of the day were taken elsewhere by Heather and her husband. They are snitching tasty morsels when the kids aren’t paying attention 🙂